The last

In life there are always those turning points that make you stop for a moment and attempt to appreciate the exact moment, for it will never return. It is often hard to appreciate every moment in life because life in and of itself is constantly moving and moving quickly for that matter.

When I found out I was pregnant with this second child, I immediately realized that spring break would be my last chunk of quality time with just Hadley, forever. Sure, we will do things just the two of us during our life together, but there will always be another child of mine waiting for me. I had planned on spending this week making the most of our last time alone together as much fun as possible. It was fun and now it is over.

Sometimes I think Hadley is an old soul. Sure, she is three and man can she be challenging, but she has these amazing things she does... Like tonight, it was a half hour before she was set to go to bed and she crawled up on my lap and put her head on my stomach and said, "baby, as soon as you come out I'll love you". It was the sweetest thing. Then she proceeded to lay on my shoulder and snuggle with me while we listened to puff the magic dragon and rocked quietly. Those moments are few and far between since she is usually running from the moment she wakes up until she lays her head on her pillow at night.

It was really sweet and touching and a perfect way to end our last vacation together, just the two of us.

The other thing that happened this week is something I remember from when I was pregnant with Hadley. I remember having stretches of time towards the end of my pregnancy that I just wanted to kind of hibernate in our house with just Mike. That happened again this week, but it was with Mike and Hadley. It is like my heart and mind know that our lives are about to be turned upside down for a bit and I just want to soak up every moment of time with just my family. Not that I don't love all of my wonderful friends, but it makes me just kind of want to be with my family, just for a bit of time.

This week was nice, Mike and I spent several hours just talking, something we often don't get to do as much due to our crazy schedules, we played games just the two and then the three of us. Hadley and I read books for hours, went to the park, danced, and just spent time together. The weather changed several of the things that I had planned for she and I to do and it was almost for the better, made me slow down and just hang out with her at home which was just what I realized I wanted in the end.

So, here we go, the home stretch. Five weeks to go. It will go fast and then we will be a family of four. Which is also something that is just what I always wanted....